Sympathy comes from experience. When you have never had something happen to you, you have a difficult time emotionally relating to those who have had it happen. As all of my two readers probably know, I went through a painful breakup a while back. I really had no idea that it would hurt this much before it happened and now that it has, I have a much deeper appreciation for what some of my friends have gone through in the past. I was clueless as to what it was actually like to lose someone I really cared for (this was the first time I was actually in love). When Faryar had his ex-girlfriend cheat on him, I had no idea how he felt and was pretty brash. I remember making a joke to the effect “the player finally got played”… now I can see that that was really fucked up. But I didn’t know any better at the time, which is probably why he didn’t punch me. What really blows me away is how rough it must have been on Jeremy (and also Rachelle) when he and Rachelle broke up for the first and second times- they were together for a really long time and actually lived together for a period of time. I’m amazed that he managed to pick himself back up and keep trudging on after that one.
I wonder how many other experiences I’ve downplayed thus far, but will go through in the future? The saying, “walk a mile in a man’s shoes” really starts to hit home.
The only thing you can really do when this situation happens is to try to learn as much as you can from what you did wrong (and right) in this relationship and try to make myself a better person for the next lady who comes into your life. I most assuredly have a lot to learn still.
I met my potential biological father on Sunday and spent all day hanging out with him. He was one of the nicest guys I have ever met and I had a great time talking to him and showing him around a little bit. I gave him a tour of the UW campus, went to eat at Cedar’s Indian restaurant, visited Gasworks park, ate dinner at Chipotle’s and finished up meeting his cousin and her friend at the U-district Lounge.
His name is Bruce Eide and he is about 6’2” and seems to have a similar build to mine (though of course he’s 52 and has never really worked out). His hair color was like mine but his is thinning and his eye color also seemed to be the similar weird greenish color I have. I think that we had a lot of similarities, but won’t be sure until we get the DNA test done and know for sure.
I really liked interacting with him, he was very laid back and chill and seemed to enjoy himself. I’m looking forward to perhaps visiting him in Sioux Falls at some point (and seeing his 600 hp Ferrari Stradale!)
Fletcher came up with a goofy nickname for Bruce when I was telling about everything that happened… Newdaddy/Nudaddy/Nudedaddy lol.
If you call me, always be sure to leave a message or I may not know that you called. I had called Melanie (the girl with the gorgeous house I hopefully may move in to) on Sunday and again yesterday to see if I could come out and meet her roommate and see if they were going to be okay living with a guy. I never heard anything back and assumed that they had decided they wanted a girl, but then i got a message last night from her and she said she had tried to call me on Sunday too and both calls had gone directly to voicemail. So if you want me to know you called, please leave a message. Thanks!
I have been watching the real estate market for several years now and I think it’s become a bubble and will pop soon. The subprime loans market has already plunged and if interest rates continue to rise, other sectors will collapse as well. This will lead to massive foreclosures, which will in turn create a supply glut and prices will drop. Which all would make me a happy man, because I will be able to buy my first home soon!
I just read an interesting article in the NYTimes that tells you how to tell if you dog loves your or not by which direction his tail wags. If his tail wags right, he has positive feelings towards you and if it wags left he is uncomfortable/fearful.
One week ago I bought a million shares of stock in ATLJ for $.0022 ($2k) and sold it yesterday for $.0039 a share ($3.7k)… a gain of about 70%. Brilliant!
My company got an article on the front page of the Business section of the Seattle Times today. Check it out
No, this is not SNL.
I went to the party at the old frat guys house tonight with Fletch and saw a bunch of old guys I knew. It was one of the saddest and most frightening things I’ve ever seen. I am so glad that I escaped that culture when I did. I left feeling horrified and have had nothing to do with it since until tonight, when I went to the party. There was BW (the giant man I wrestled and who doesn’t like me anymore) and KZ and both of them were exactly as I remembered. They had huge, unsubstantiated egos that were just pathetic when you watched them think they were cool rejecting poor girls. All the reasons I left and never looked back came rushing to me.
After I was sufficiently depressed by all of those old guys, Fletch and I left. We went to Earl’s to get a nightcap and that was another enlightening experience. It was full of people that disgusted me and made me afraid for humanity itself.
I left as quickly as I could and went and got some shitty greasy food at New China and talked to Fletch about how fucked up life can be. Sometimes when you are in a situation you are unable to recognize how bad life can be. Now I do. I don’t want to ever go back.
“There’s no one beside you when you’re soul embarks, I’ll follow you into the dark. “
Fletch and I were working out today when he mentioned that the Seattle Public Library was having it’s annual book sale. Paperbacks are going for $.50, Hardbacks for a buck, VHS movies $2, DVDs $4…. all of which is extremely cheap, so I suggested we go and check it out. I bought a ton of new movies and now I’m going to have to buy a VHS player so i can actually watch them ;). Listen to this list of gems:
-Igby Goes Down
-Requiem for a Dream
-Good Will Hunting
-Army of Darkness
-The Princess Bride
I think I am going to start a book/movie library… I’ve never had one before and I think it would be a great asset to own.
I haven’t had such strange weekend plans in awhile:
-Tonight, I’m going to an old friend’s birthday party in Greenlake where I am probably going to see a bunch of guys I know from the fraternities… strange. I haven’t seen them in a very long time and it’ll be weird being at a virtual frat party. To top it all off, one of my coworkers, Victoria, will be there with her roommate and roommate’s sister. I don’t plan to stay long.
-I am going to meet my maybe biological father on Saturday evening or Sunday. My brother Jordan did some research today on this guy and found out some pretty incredible info: he owns at least three car dealerships, a farm, a $15k watch and beautiful classic cars along with associated racing teams. He also is the president of the Sioux Falls Film Festival, sits on the board of Porsche Club of America and races some of the best cars in the world for fun. His family name is also on the 23rd ranked CPA firm in the nation, based in Sioux Falls, but I’m not sure if he is a part of it. Now how in the hell am I going to have dinner with this guy? I am thinking about cancelling, because I don’t want him to think I am after his money. I just want a DNA test. I’m not sure what to do.
-Meeting with my potential future roommates in their gorgeous house. Somehow I have to convince them that it’s okay to live with me, a guy, instead of a girl. The house is perfect for me, if I can get it.
-Going to a shooting range with my neighbor, Ying on Saturday after I get done exercising. My old friend who came up with the idea can’t go anymore, so now it’ll just be me and this crazy girl. And she’ll be armed. Eek.
-My old friend, Justin, is having a big poker party for his birthday at 6pm in Puyallup and my other friends have been giving me crap about maybe not being able to go, so I’m going to see if I can make it.
-To top it all off, I may (or may not) be meeting with Becky to have a serious conversation at some point.
I also have to:
-Build a website
-Clean my apartment
-Prepare to move
-Talk to my newly recruited workers and educate them on what to do.
Seems almost overwhelming. But you know what? I love the challenge. It’ll let me know I’m still alive.